Windshield Network Escobar Beach Party

Me and Mr King Oliver :)

                                                

  Amin and Angel. Smile!! 

                                                                 

Pose a nice big smile for me!! :(

          Wow. Im the tallest one here... Why so stiff? Lol

   

      The STAGE. Yeah. STAGE

                           

                                                                     Music Stage. Nice?

                      I love this one. Its concert bands. Im not too sure what it is called actually.             

  Escobar Splash Ticket

           Night Scene at the Beach Stage

                      Deejays mixing their music. I think the girl is DJ Nicole.. but the picture is abit blur though.

22nd of DEC- Based on Mayan Calendar, we are all supposed to DIE at 2 am. (Based on our local time) but, I didnt see any huge tsunami coming from the Damai Beach waiting to engulf me and my friends... *laughs* I ran into my two friends Lin Hui and Sze too at the beach

It was abit boring though, I think there was only DJs mixing their music, but I liked the atmosphere. My friends did find it boring, so we decided to leave early... I thought there would be dancing and partying... and playing with the water...

After that we went to plaza merdeka to drink second round before going home. The tickets were bought at RM 20 early bird discount. 

Thats all, chow. :)

Scared Of Being Hurt

Well, I think this post is quite important to clarify my true feelings on this matter. I don't think I can ever get over the past of being hurt... I wonder. I was overly hurt one time, and then I began to close down completely, whether in friendships and relationships.

I used to be a social butterfly, hopping from one group to another in case it messed up, so i was quite popular at one time. But POPULARITY pays a price.. HUGE price...

Well, probably the first one you will get is gossip, then after that the issue of secrecy (the really REALLY popular ones). Hmm, well you get other stuff such as jealousy (I've heard of that one before from other friends and through my own observations)

Mmm, okay I think Im going off topic. 

Reasons I am scared of being hurt is because:

1. Being bullied before.
2. Scared of same incident happening again (bullying)
3. Being backstabbed before (aye I know it hurts :( )
4. Dont trust guys (Being played before *ouchie*)
5. The list is on and on ... ETC etc etc


Closing off the topic now. Thankies for reading peeps! Please walk in more often. I appreciate my blog view counts. I really do :)

I'm Still Not Happy

I thought things would be better if I could get my cert. Go out with friends etc... Living in the present is impossible to me. Yada yada @@. thats all. goodbye

Trust and Confidence

I've always wanted to write about this post. Its about human trust and confidence. Let me be frank. As a cancer girl... I put trust as top priority on everything I do. Like relationships, friendships, 'relationships-with-people' yada yada. First things never to leak out (if possible) >>

1. Your fam issues (DUH)
2. Your next crush (extreme leakage)
3. Your salary (jealousy issues?)

I almost never wanna leak out anything.. I used to be overly trusting... So I got bombed alot.. but I learned. I really really learned. One still cant be overly cautious though.

Once you betray my trust, gone case forever. Thats me. Yupz

The Life Of A Miserable Teen

Here's what I should say. There is always not enough time to go around, not enough money to spend, and the list goes on and on etc. There is also not enough smiles to share around, not enough freedom, and not enough space, and not enough energy to do what I am doing.

In other words.. STRESS!! My lecturer asked me to devour two newspapers per day. Yup. And I have reached a age range where... I should be working by now. Yup. I'm turning 23 next year. 23!! not 17 or 18 okay.. its 23.. an age where you can start worrying how you look, your finance in the future, your current outlook, your current image, your clothes, your makeup, your skincare, your 'relationship status' and the list goes on (yada yada). I wont be worrying about stuff like this 3 years ago. Nope. 3 years ago I'm still having fun in college. Ya.

I know I'm slow. But still, I refuse to give up. I don't want another lag of 3 years due to a handicapped hand. Am I really pushing myself too hard? I'm trying to make up for the lost time. Its so unfair. Really. But to put 6 years back.. Thats really alot of time to put back on track... Maybe I should stop looking into the past and look forward.. '


In accounting.. we have a thing called opportunity cost. Ya. The opportunity cost of studying vs the opportunity cost of working = ? *opp cost means >>> benefit foregone in doing something else*
WORK!!! You're slow!!! Shit...

Enough emo-ing and back to work then. My parents are slow. But that was their era. This era you need to be fast. Bye peeps!

Outing Wiz Gal Frenz at Life Cafe

    Hi gal!! Smile XD

This pic really doesnt look like me I don't know why .. ><"

Biggy Smile ^^

         Taken with Fuji Instax Mini Camera ... Soul Mates *Muakzz*

Mmm? Nice or not??!!

I hung out with one of my college friends Teresa the other day at life cafe.. while we just chatted and chatted about our daily life, probs and shared interesting stories with each other... I've known her since 2008 in inti.. and amidst some conflicts we managed to get back together as closer friends. She's quite fun to hang around with and has a good sense of humour..

I rarely blog so much about food nowadays cuz I seldom hang out with my friends... No time.. More assignments more exams, packed schedule etc. I missed year 2010 so much tho.. The girl that was carefree and more ignorant.. but rather the girl next door.. 

I miss some of my old friends.. but I've decided that while friends come and go some closer ones really do stick to you.. The true ones.. Well.. Thats all! Chow ^^

The Nightmare Of Reality

Hmm.. This is actually a summary of what happened to me this year. I woke up to find that 3 years of lost time due to a crippled hand was horrifying... Then I decided to pace up.. like 3 times faster ....

Episode 1: Got into a fight with my parents

Episode 2: Left the studio I loved so much, and HIM (we weren't together)

Episode 3: Signed up for a marathon of stuff to preoccupy myself. (Assignments, new course, violin, piano, belly dance) Like driving myself mad. Thats what

Episode 4: Trying to cope with the tight schedule, and nearly dying trying

Next episode.. To be continued ....

My Life And How I Grew Up

I was a kid under the protection of my parents, and they were overly protective, as I was the only child. But this year, at the age of 22, I was clear what I wanted. I wanted to escape from their grasp, and live the life I wanted, which meant, no constraint, work alone, able to hang out late, etc.

I had to fight with my mum for 2 months over a pair of car keys. Ridiculous? They kept treating me like a child, which was wrong. My mum had PMS .. ya.. don't get me wrong. She's old and she's behaving like a child. No one can stand her. My dad? Has tantrums all the time. As a result, I had to get out of the house all the time. It was my only ticket to sanity. 

I drive out first thing every morning, and find a wi-fi spot to do my assignments and get a breather. I avoid my parents at all costs. They are negative people that have the worst perception of everything they do. Ya. And I have friends that tell me to think positive, when they in fact.. cant. My parents are born pessimists that think of the worst possible outcome of every single aspect, especially my mum.

I've decided to start working asap (like next year) and then when I have enough $$ >> MOVE OUT. Nope. I'm not joking. When I am not with them, I am in such a better state of mind and also so much happier. 

I have reached a certain state that I dont think I feel anything anymore, after all the trash I've gone through. I will stay strong and persevere, not buying other people's comments that put me down. Yup. Thats ME!!


Thanks for reading peeps. I am happy to have you guys :)

Increasing Self Esteem

I don't think that sitting here doing nothing would help me at all... Yup I agree, my self esteem has dropped.. Like right down to the bottom.. I felt that a makeover would make me feel better, but it didnt..

Surprising enough, I can't dance anymore. I guess I can accept that. (IF I force myself to) I used to think that was the only thing I was good at.. Which is the problem... Its like you're good in english and now you're poor in that too... (MISERY)

No.. I don't think I was good in dancing to begin with... I dont understand why people still think I'm a good dancer.. Nope.. I'm NOT...

Maybe I should count my accomplishments...

1. Done my haircut
2. Done a few small daily skincare
3. Finished a CAT


So why am I still so down? I just dont feel happy... I really dont...

Advice?

I Can't Get Over You AND i HATE IT

Ever liked a guy so much you can't seem to forget him? Well... I have.. in my case. And I just can't write it out on facebook.. if you know what I mean... but i simply have to express myself very badly if not I'll probably go mad... *yeah* am going mad already.. I've tried to fill up my schedule.. Like mad.. I've tried a drastic makeover...I've tried so many things.. but i cant get over.. HIM.. WHY??? 

yeah.. reality of life really sucks.. When you should just date another guy and you should have gotten over this ONE by now but you haven't .. and worse your friends are pairing off and YOU (YES YOU) are like a wallflower....

Trying not to act desperate(Okay I sound a lil bit now) and you get upset when you see everyone is 'in a relationship'. I used to take things nice n slow... but I kinda gave up.. you see... guys don't wear watches.. and your own biological clock keeps on ticking.. and ticking... I can't believe I actually waited for a guy for a couple of years... Its pretty bad.... I should have moved out of the situation before it worsened.. SHIT *swears*

Okay.. here's the fact. Lets face it. You forget this one guy. You move on. You grab the next best available. And give it a try. Its not that bad. You go back to college. You study hard. Forget about him. And MOVE ON.


 Thats it. Period. Bye ><"

Baking Premix Cakes

 

Baking premix D-I-Y cakes.. Nice!! and gained few kgs with it :)

Lols XP

I dont know what to write in this post though... mm ingredients are vegetable oil, etc

One Jaya Job

Hairbands and Brooches in One Jaya

This is Missy the cat. The cat that a Malay family left for Hari Raya for Tracy to take care of.. Bye!! Miss you when you disturb me when imma counting beads :)

Uh oh.. makeup and hairdo by Jasmine and May :)

Bracelet!! One for RM 15!! Not including box ya :)

                                                                        

                                                                    Me and Xiao Gui

My one month plus job at one jaya. I guess I couldn't stand the long working hours, but I think I was there mainly for the experience. I remember stacking stuff, counting beads, cleaning mirrors etc (and serving customers) The other job at Kuching Festival was ... hmm.. oh ya. selling drinks :)

Selling drinks at food fest. Ya... and ran into quite a few friends at Soul Dance and other studios.. wonder how they are now though *Pauses to think*

I think I'll just cut the story short... I find it very stressful to work there actually, thats why I quit. Mmm.. since its my first job I will not take it too seriously... So .. gotta go guys... Buh Bye XP

Thanks for reading. Chao

2012 Life

I've been going into hiatus lately.. currently started my first job as a sales assistant in a jewellry shop... I think I have fallen in love with swarovski crystals ever since I have taken up the new job.

I sold some beverages too at the kuching food festival and ran into a friend at soul dance studio. I ran into a couple more friends from college and also some other friends from other dance studios.. I think they were like surprised to see me there. Lol ^^

Working & Life

Mmm! I'm back!! Yeah been dead for awhile.. I've been learning piano since the start of this year, after my hand has FINALLY gotten back to its original state.. and I'm now taking journalism, change of course. I've enrolled in the london school of journalism, its some sort of online diploma course which you can take at your own pace.. I've been eyeing the mass communication course for about a year or so now, and I've finally found a journalism course. It wasn't easy to get into that college in the first place, I had to come up with quite a number of CVs (resumes) and I kept prompting myself whether I wrote the right thing. I was estatic when I was accepted. *salutes myself*

I'm also currently working as a sales trainee at Tracync Jewellry Shop at One Jaya.. its a nice place not too far from my house.. And I've taken up violin lessons as well (mum thinks I'm mad *she's probably right*) Mmm... I miss dance.. I really do.. but I've decided to go for belly dancing to trim up the bellyfat on mwah... @Right steps studio.

My schedule is packed *I'm loving it* and I just can't wait to finish up the journalism course. I've been eyeing a photography course too .. but thats gonna have to wait, to back up my journalism. Hope I can earn enough $$$ in the meanwhile to get that sub-course. Mum's paying for my journalism course so I better make sure I score well in that.

Am sooo happy to say that.. my hand has recovered..3 years. 3 horrible depressive years.. of unable to write, type, play piano and manage meticulous daily chores that require fine movement of the nerves in my right wrist. I'm back on track, happier and stronger. I hope you guys enjoy my writing.. I'll see if I can put some nice stuff on tumblr. See ya !
  

Love & Passion

In actual fact I don't know what to write today. So I think I'll just talk about love and passion.

As a matter of fact, I don't really like accounting, but I've decided to pursue it just to finish up with it. Another thing is I've decided to change to journalism. It wouldn't be easy but I'll try my best. Accounts had never been my thing.

Enough of prep talking... Today I'm going to share something about love and passion (related to your future career *yada* *yada*)

Someone once told me... Follow your passion and dreams - that was my uncle in US. He is a damn good philosopher, and I would say he is a 'street wise' uncle. I really admired him. His books in his room was .. phew.. stacks and stacks and stacks... If only you grabbed a single book and read it... I swear you could already open up a library with just solely a single room (lmao)

I really admired my uncle Ah Thor. He went to US when he was young... and according to my dad, he opened up like.. two to three restaurants before and couldn't manage them properly, so he went bust. When he left Cebu, he took some money from the family and my grandmum had to pay off some debts. My dad labelled him as the black sheep of the family... but I think that wasn't the case... It seemed that the states.. had moulded him into a better person. From Dad's description of Uncle, I was pretty skeptical that he had to stay with us for a month or two (considering the fact I was already skeptical about the weird family tree on my dad's side) and I gave him a cold shoulder at first. It was only then I realized he was the only one (I would say the only ONE) amongst my dad's relatives that could think OUT of the box... Which probably was why he was successful... In the U.S.


He loved collecting antiques. Yup. The house was FULL of them. I thought that I was going to be living in a buddhist temple when I landed on his doorstep. *Wow* I thought. So many GODDAMN old artifacts. I carefully examined each and every one of them in detail, and I realized that Uncle Thor had plenty of the Yau's family culture ingrained in him. Let's be brief.. My grandmum (Dad's Mom) is good in chinese literature and 毛笔. I think I'm getting sidetracked here. Uncle Thor told me that you if you do what you love in life, you'll never work a day of your life... meaning... if you do what you love, you won't feel the pressure of doing so, because that is your passion. Let's say he loves artifacts, so if he opens up an antique shop, he won't feel the pressure of the his so-called job because he enjoys collecting artifacts. 


Back to ME. Lol. I love dancing. Secretly I would like to become a full time dancer one day. But to me that's still a dream come true. It'll be pretty nice right? I don't mind to train harder. Even if I don't remember half the steps. I guess I won't give up my dream. Hope you guys won't too. It's nice to have a dream. 


Thanks for reading peeps. <3

P.S. I think I once had a mentor that taught me the same love and passion concept. Cheers XD

Reminiscing

We reminisce when we haven't known happiness... Is that true? Or have I been living in the dark for too long.... Not appreciating the good memories... and engulfed down by the sorrowful ones ....

I never really appreciated the care... and the joy... of friends, family etc... (Love is an exception)

I used to write so many love articles.... I used to have guys chasing me... (Prolly because of appearance)

A fren said... "If a guy likes you, and you don't.. you'll be able to recognize it and feel it"

                    "If you like a guy, and he doesn't like you... He'll find a way to avoid you..."

                    "If you like a guy, and he likes you, both of you can't feel it," *HUH?*

Finished swallowing the mars and venus book (Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus)

 

Frenz B'Day @ K11

 Happy B'Day Teresa!! Smile!!

Nice cup cakes!!

Here's a smile for da b'day gurl!! (Paisay blur pic)

Say hi to King Oliver and Pin Pin =D

Two HengTai singin.. yo!!

I went to Station One to celebrate my friend's birthday last night... Old fren from college... We talked and singed and had lotsa fun... She got dabbed by cream by her two buds *CAKEFIGHT* lol... While I avoided the whole scene and tried to sing as many songs as I could (lmao) Her cousin bro is quite good in singing actually.... I never heard anyone sing in cantonese before.. She mentioned him before...

We ate at Station One 'late night dinner' and after that we just got upstairs to sing in K11. Guess what happened after we sang? We had to rush from B1 to B2 to pay the parking ticket... not to mention go back up to see the reception in K11 to ask how the hell we supposed to get out of K11 when the parking ticket machine was malfunctioning. (We even made a wild goose chase after the security guard ><) 

However.. we managed to get out (phew) and me (REACH HOME) It was a memorable night lolz... thanks to my frens... Happy Birthday to you Gurl...

  

Mother's Day 2012

This is a simple present to my mum for Mother's Day... Sorry about the late delay on my posts... Kinda coped up lately with my own stuff and in my own little world... I'm not sure if she really liked it.. (It's a pair of earrings) Hmm... Hard to see my pessimistic mum happy about anything at all.. (Alright, enough of the complaints already T.T) 

Bought this at Spring... Mum said the earrings didn't itch.. Duh... (Made in Korea) So I guessed she appreciated it after all.. Hmm... 

Cutting the emo-ness outta my system...

This was an old bookmark I made when I was still a young girl... 12 Dec 2003 @ Holiday Tuition Programme. I thought it would look sweet along with my post so I decided to put it up. 

Love is bitter yet sweet

More bitter than medicine

Yet sweeter than honey

Love is yours and mine

Tearfully we break apart

But our love shall last forever

Gracias peeps :D

Have a nice day

Back To Life *Wiz A New Toy*

This is me and my new Fuji Instax mini 7s camera

Whee!!

Film!! Why are u so expensive!! Imma BROKE man!!

Self-shot camera lens (Its actually a mirror) 

Got it from ebay!!

Me and Bear Bear!! XD

Okay... Been kinda busy lately.. actually pretty much back to life, so anyways, I got myself a new "toy" ... mum was going on and on how expensive my 'toys' can get... Yeah yeah.. I know... cut the nagging mum (>o<)" 

Hmm... actually I was trying to get the camera online (Ebay) but I made a mistake and I bought the lens instead, so as a result, I had to buy the camera from one jaya as well (of course only after the lens arrived by post on my doorstep) 

Anyways... the film is actually pretty special... I have no idea how to describe it... Hmm... Its like a little plastic machine box which once u open u just insert it directly into the little white camera.. (okay .. no WONDER you are so damn expensive >< )

10 shots.. and the 1st shot is blank... is about RM 30.. or around that... can't remember the exact price... Nevertheless, it takes ages for me to get a nice pic.. because one film is actually RM 3!! But it's kinda worth the effort you know... hahaha.... besides it put me in a very very good mood... but i'll probably spend the whole afternoon just taking one or two pics... U know what I mean... XP...

Anyways.. I gotta get going now... I'm happy to say that my blog (and ME!) is back to life again... so erm.. peeps.. sayonara!! Thanks for reading yo!! XD 

*Ups And Downs*

Life has its ups and downs... When the time comes... U will begin to realize... That a true friend will be hard to find.. Try to ask less, know less, but comprehend, and understand a lil bit more... The less sometimes you really know about that someone... Maybe the better it would be.. right? Hmm... So... Enough about this thingy already..

Today would be coming bek to SD in this new year 2012... lol.. but anyways... Talked here and there... Would be fun to socialize and mingle around again... Miss some of the really old old crew.. Keryn... Evon.. :) 

As for the drama club... Guess.. well.. can hang out with them once awhile.. Provided that they dont give me any more stress.... So well... 

Hmm... low profile is good profile... MIA... 

Recovering... Lol... :)

See ya peeps

P.S. Da Fast and Furious Astro movie got my movie kick back....