Im Not Over Yet

I cant believe this. This is year 2017 and i met you in 2010. I still cry sometimes

I smashed the house. I never liked anyone after that. I ate three bowls of rice. I put on 30 kg. I still upset but act happy in front of everyone. Im still upset. I go home and bang speakers for no reason.

I have to dance to lose weight. I remember when I liked a guy in high school and I went into turmoil
3 hours a day i danced until I nearly went mad. I chased him. But no respond.

I almost committed suicide because of a guy.

I am sure Im going to jump down any time now.

I think I should go to muay thai instead. Maybe I can let out some steam.

Im Studying n Working? At the same time?

Today's post isnt private, its public.

I can finally post about my life. I celebrated Amelia's birthday today. Happy for her and her stuff.

Im getting around my edges with teresa. Just something i cant understand.

Uncomfortable around her at times.

I miss my other gangs.. But for the sake of friendship. I hope. I can last in this group.

I am now very tired. I also harbor dark secrets. But not all are that bad

I hope that LH will end up married soon

I hope i can handle new college life

Now im so tired of having to suit everyone's character and not to hurt them unknowingly.



Night